The Crucible: John Proctor's Decision to Die; Is the Right One? In the play, The Crucible, John Proctor quoted "Because it is my name!, Because I cannot have another in my life. How may I live without my name, leave me my name! ( page 138)." He has very strong belief's that if his name is blackened there is no reason to live. John Proctor also chose to die because he could not double cross his friends, the fact that he has three children, John could not raise his children to walk like men in the world if he himself was not a true man. Therefore for the sake of h